I believe in falling in love as many times as you can in a life time.  If your relationship comes to a standstill and you aren’t still falling then change something up.  If you only knew how much those little moments mattered.

I believe in falling in love as many times as you can in a life time. If your relationship comes to a standstill and you aren’t still falling then change something up. If you only knew how much those little moments mattered.


The classic smile vs. This new fad #duckface….. where did it come from??? Which one is better in your opinion?  I vote SMILE. Its the best makeup :)

The classic smile vs. This new fad #duckface….. where did it come from??? Which one is better in your opinion? I vote SMILE. Its the best makeup :)


A light little Sunday breakfast! @precisionsupps fans what is it?

A light little Sunday breakfast! @precisionsupps fans what is it?


Life Lessons.

August 23, 2014

What is the biggest life lesson you have learned in your lifetime so far???

There are so many life lessons to be learned.

Every situation that I am in, good or bad, comes with a lesson. I have made a lot of dumb decisions and mistakes in my life. I remind myself that it’s okay and sit back to reflect on what I learned from those downfalls. If someone doesn’t make mistakes then they are living on the safe side in life and will never evolve as a person.

People who make mistake after mistake begin to think that their bad luck is out of their control. They believe that they have no control in their life and that bad things will continue to happen to them for no reason. These are the folks that don’t learn from their mistakes. That used to be me. I was the victim and never thought anything good would ever happen to me. This was my way of thinking until October of 2011. I was newly separated at the young age of 24. I was lost. I was working a lot, partying a lot and not listening to what the universe was telling me. I had just worked 16 hours and needed to be back at work early in the morning. I wasn’t allowed to sleep at work, so I drove 40 minutes home. Barely getting any sleep, I made the trek back to work at 0600. I was EXHAUSTED to say the least. I fell asleep at the wheel doing 90 km/hr and totaled my car into a massive tree. Police questioned how I was alive and how I didn’t have a scratch on me.

After recovering from a bad head injury and memory problems I paused in my life. I realized that there was something very wrong in my life. My near death experience made me realized I needed to listen and learn from my past.I had control of my present and future. It was that moment that I started to understand that I didn’t just have bad luck, but I made it for myself. I thought negative thoughts and therefore negative things were happening to me. I realized life was FULL of lessons.

I am strong because I was weak. I learned to pick myself up when I was down instead of seeking someone or something to do this for me.

I am fearless because I’ve been afraid. I used to fear stepping out of my comfort zone, therefore being stuck at the same spot in life.

I am wise because I’ve been foolish. People tell me I am wise for my age. This comes from having insight into your life. Take a horrible incident that you had no control in happening for example. If someone hurt or betrayed you in life you would probably think WHY ME???? Instead, try to reflect on that experience and see what you can improve on within yourself so you don’t find yourself in the same situation again.

Here are my top 10 life lessons.

1. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.

2. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

3. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.

4. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

5. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

6. Work hard and stay humble at the same time.

7. Life itself if a gift, don’t take it for granted.

8. Follow your dreams and only surround yourself with those who believe in you.

9. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.

10. Stay true to who you are and don’t change for anyone.

Try to reflect on life frequently and live life the way you wanna live it. Fall in love as much as you can and learn from your mistakes.

Alexa xo


REAL, hard to share……….

June 24, 2014

Well, it has been forever since I have used my Tumblr Blog account…I was going to do a VLOG for this topic, but I feel like sitting, typing and getting people to read instead of just watch a video. People have become to used to short, quick fixes like watching videos instead of reading, listening to dub step instead of old school music that takes a bit longer to get to the meat of  a song…texting instead of calling someone..the list could go on. I bet the amount of people who actually get my message will drop 30% because I decided to type and not make a video, but I am okay with that. With that 30% drop, how many people will actually read the whole blog???? Who knows, but who cares….I started blogging as a way of expressing myself to let the world know that life is what you make of it. It probably isn’t easy, but nor should it be!!!

I know most of my followers know that I am an emotional eater and some know that this stems from me being sexually abused for most of my childhood.

What happened to me I would never wish upon any kid, but then again I would not change it, as it has made me into the person I am today. Sometimes when I tell people my story they ask me how I turned out to be normal. I usually laugh because what does “normal” really mean anyways??? I think what they meant was that I have an education, have a career and didn’t turn to a drug addiction or commit suicide. I made a choice to be who I am today and I am fighting everyday to be a better person, not letting the predators who tried to ruin me WIN. I am a winner. I almost gave up on more than one occasion when I was younger…attempting suicide, playing the victim and thinking how easy it would be to just give up. After short spurts with drinking, self mutilation, drugs…I turned to food. Food was my vice…and so I became an emotional eater….I began eating to fill a void because I was fighting to survive by myself. It was my anti-anxiety drug … this made me self-loathe myself and reach 220 lbs once, lost 90 lbs and get back up to 200 lbs again!!!

I have been fighting this battle for years, and although I have figured out a balance for the most part I want people to know it’s still a daily struggle for me. Being addicted to food is exactly like being addicted to drugs or alcohol, except kinda worse. Food is completely acceptable in society, EVERYWHERE!!!!! People eat for all occasions in the world, so when you are addicted to food and it is everywhere it is hard to fight it, but it is possible.

As an emotional eater someone thinks of food constantly throughout the day…when eating they are thinking of the next time they can eat. They eat alone and binge until they are full, and then continue to eat. It is like another persona they turn into … a 130 lb girl who binge eats could probably out eat a 250 lb power-lifter. The signal in the brain that tells you that you are full disappears and you eat to fill this void that isn’t even going to begin being satisfied by turning to food. Knowing that you continue to eat because maybe, JUST MAYBE it will disappear. It never does….I learned this early on in the beginning of my life change in 2010…

Although it gets easier with time and requires A LOT of inner demon work to not let food win, you can win the battle. You need to have the right support systems in place and surround yourself with the right people to help you through. Staying accountable to someone who understands what it is all about is helpful. At times you need tough love and at other times you need an empathic and nurturing approach to get you through the hard times.

Stepping on stage when you are suffering from this is a whole other world. When competitors step off stage and loose that dehydrated, tanned, six pack they get what call “Post-Show Blues.” This can be a feat in it’s own to get over. Now add that to the fact that you are addicted to food and use it as comfort….being depressed from post-show + emotional eating = disaster, if you are not putting the work in on your inner self as much as the outer.

My post-show was great. I started my reverse diet and was looking awesome…then something happened….it led to triggering my mindset of “victim” from my childhood and the mindless eating began. I had lost control again and let myself become that victim again. Thank goodness I have GREAT support and it didn’t last long. I have done a lot of work on myself, so I can overcome it quickly be positive self talk, meditation and talking about things with those close to me. I am now back on track and feel great.

It is amazing how good you feel when you eat well and you don’t notice this until you are eating crappy and you feel the same. The mindless eating fills THAT void for the 5 minutes that you shovel your face full of food and then it creates this cycle…you feel WORSE after because now you not only feel horrible from the junk you ate,but also you have the guilt for eating the junk.

I will always struggle with emotional eating because this year in my off season it is my goal to overcome it as best possible, so I can have an amazing prep for next year’s comp and have control of food completely. It is the only think holding me back from being the best athlete I can be :)

BRING IT!!!!! xoxo


#repost Something to remember.

#repost Something to remember.


LOVE THIS SAYING.

LOVE THIS SAYING.


A little movie date with my lil man Congo … pumped this was on TV … Which movie is it? #favoritemovie #chilltime

A little movie date with my lil man Congo … pumped this was on TV … Which movie is it? #favoritemovie #chilltime


You know you’ve lost your simple, small town girl skills when you show up for a weekend at camp with a massive suitcase.  Embarrassing when Joe’s family had to take a pic because it was the biggest suitcase that had come to the outfitters haha!! #neededoptions

You know you’ve lost your simple, small town girl skills when you show up for a weekend at camp with a massive suitcase. Embarrassing when Joe’s family had to take a pic because it was the biggest suitcase that had come to the outfitters haha!! #neededoptions


#tbt to a night out with @muscle_insider and @inside_fitness  after parties. Good times with my ladies that night! #fitfam #diyfashion #motivation #transformation

#tbt to a night out with @muscle_insider and @inside_fitness after parties. Good times with my ladies that night! #fitfam #diyfashion #motivation #transformation