Hitting 2013 with a BANG!!!!
May 22, 2013
It has been a llllooonnnngggg time since I have typed a blog, but here I go …. If you are new to reading my blog then please go back to Jaunary 2010 when I started, grab a glass or water or wine and check it out!!! My journey started with my goal of going from BLUBBER TO BUILT!!! I wanted to lose weight and compete in a figure competition, checking something off my bucket list. In May of 2011 I did that and became so inspired by the sport of competing and what you could accomplish with your inner and outer self that I continued the journey. The journey has been, by no means, an easy road!!! I have now taken this bucket list item and turned it into my lifestyle and now I am driven to be the CHAMPION!!!
With being the best you can on stage comes the mind games it plays with you. Unless you can competed you wouldn’t fully understand, but with any high there is a low …. Like after you graduate from school, get married or run a marathon … after that it is a feeling of being lost and not really knowing who are you for a while. With competing, you go from having a six pack and being depleted to drinking some water, enjoying some treats, not living a strict scheduled life …. Which leads to a common outcome … a fast and large weight gain!!! After my first competition I gained about 30+ lbs back, 20lbs within 2 weeks …. After my 2nd one, same sort of deal …. Then you become obsessed with your body image and feeling awful about your body.
A lot of athletes continue to do this weight gain and weight loss battle through their years of competing, but I made a goal to not do this after I won my show in October of last year. I managed to stay at a comfortable weight and actually eat clean through my off season. At the same time I did a lot researching and reading on how to balance my life and remember how far I had come since the beginning of my weight loss journey. When I first started I learned how to love my body for who I was that day and after my show in May of last year I had completely forgot it all and became very depressed again …luckily for a short period of time and worked very hard to climb out of it!!!!
Since I was able to find an appreciation for my body and not turn to food in my off season I have come back with a HUGE BANG this year!!! I teamed up with Kim Tilden IFBB Pro and she taught me that the life of competing does not mean that you have to consume yourself in the sport and have tunnel vision (until 6 weeks out lol)… she helped me see that life is about balance and that you can go on a trip, enjoy yourself and not have to feel guilty about it. Being a transformation coach myself I totally believe and teach this philosophy as well, but we are our own worst critics so it’s hard sometimes to do things for ourselves. I put on a good amount of muscle because I ate clean and my emotions were more stable because I wasn’t filling myself with junk food. This causes your blood sugar levels to spike and drop and this can cause mood swings etc …. It also helped my mind from feeling guilty because I worked in free meals. Processed food is also full of high fructose corn syrup, chemicals and hormones that screw with your equilibrium and so without that I have been overall healthier!
Okay guys, I think that is enough for now….stay tuned for more blogs because I am digging the old skool typing, takes much less time than editing a video lol!!!! I will also be posting little videos pre-show just so you can get a little of both!!!
Take care and Namaste xoxo